Happy birthday to me~ 🥳

Though I still have a ton of insecurities, I’ve really started to notice the beauty of my body. :3

I know some people gatekeep insecurities and negative spiral to people who have “real” problems. But I’m here to validate that your insecurities are based on what you feel like you want and don’t have.

People may not see it. But it doesn’t mean your feelings are not valid.

I do encourage you to start seeing yourself through others’ gaze if there is a big discrepancy between how you see yourself and how others see you.

There’s no right way to view things, including yourself. But there are certainly ways to view things that make you feel a whole lot better. And that’s what we want right?

It’s okay to view things negatively. Contrary to what people might tell you. It’s not bad to view things negatively. You can even let it take over for a bit.

Being able to experience the full spectrum of emotion is kind of a super power. It enables you compassion and empathy. It also gives you an opportunity to let out negative emotions.

Believe it or not, it’s impossible to not be negative at all. That’s why the overly nice and positive about everything people always seem a little fake and make us uneasy.. or at least it makes me uneasy LOL.

Having negative thoughts and bouncing back is like a mental workout that we slowly get better at. The muscle of digging yourself out of a pit needs to be practiced but you do get stronger and better at it.

Now, I’m not here to encourage you to view things negatively. I’m just saying don’t be harsh on yourself if you do go there.

I woke up yesterday feeling deep shame of my meltdown. I felt very stupid and ungrateful to even feel bad given my life is relatively still good. But the truth is. I am allowed to feel any which way about things, good or bad. We only need to get better at ending up in a feeling that keep us going.

I am so proud of myself for flexing my emotional muscle and lifting myself back up. I’m also so grateful for each and every one of you that made my day feel extra special.

I woke up feeling grateful today. And that’s thanks to all of you and ofc myself :3 💙💙